i-love-you-and-you

i love you,baby.

funny how four simple words could change my world.
and even when i am downright mad at you,i will reply with a 'i love you too,dear.'

the perks of being in a relationship?
you have someone to keep you warm in the cold night.
the downs?
how could there ever be downs when you are with your better half?

he bought for me a charm bracelet! SK Jewellery! you are so fucking sweet like seriously!
you make me smile (:

on the other hand,
as much as i love babitches,i am kind of pissed off with them.
not the hurl vulgarities kind of pissed off.the im angry but i have to be understanding but i am so hurt kind of thing.
i simply have no idea what happened to the pact.
thinking about it makes me wish i had nvr taken the pact seriously.
before their As 'heyya,we will spend time with you after our As.'
after As 'oh.......(silence)'
i might be exaggerating but you get my drift.goodness! ive waited for you guys to finish ur As so that i could spend time with you guys! and this is wat i get?
the pact was for us to meet once every month.i have yet to meet syaz for god-knows-how-long.
i am soooo friggin pissed off..

that aside,
i have been making a new close fren these past few days.
i shall just label him as my sayang.and no,he isnt my scandal.i still love salihin and will always.
so anyways,this dude i know right here is a fren like no other! he and Salihin,put together,is like the epitome of massacre for innocent minds.seriously!
and i so cant wait for countdown!a bonfire sounds inviting and warm.
then i can hug both this dude and my baby, and say 'I LOVE YOU BOTH!' again.

do assignments,heyya.
stop caring about people who cares only about their life.
your life is more important.
start mugging,heyya.

♥ i have stopped counting the days and started living them ♥

with a laaa and a luuu

i wanna scream.cos life officially sux for me.

and there are so many reasons why.

i wld love to tell someone

but i just cant find someone i truly trust.

i miss you,my soul.

if i recall correctly,someone was supposed to blog about yst.

anyways,we had steamboat! like finally! and we ate so awfully much that my stomach was bloated by the end of the buffet.we had like black pepper fish,white fish,meat,chicken,cuttlefish,prawn (which is much better if soaked in tom yum soup!),tpm yum soup which contained sausages,fishballs,mussels,some dick-shaped stuff,maggie and loads of MUSHROOMS!! and to end it off,we had 3 and 1/2 scoops of icecream.all that for only $33.nonetheless, yst made me realise how much i love my sayang. seriously. i think through all the bad times and through all the good times,he would be the first person i would turn to.with him,i could just be myself.but im not sure if he would like that.

the steamboat was a blast but it was overwhelmed by the parting.

i am in KL now with Hajjar.

but deep in my heart,i cant wait to be home.

to be in the arms of my baby and to bask in the warmth of my family.

my room.my bed.my tv.my wardrobe.

i didnt realise their sentimental values until now.until i am away.

i miss bear bear.

i miss you,sayang.

i miss my family.

♥ can i cry now? cos now seems appropriate.cos it isnt ur fault.

quizzes make me feel high.

I was tagged by KECIK to do this quiz.


1. Are you single?
A: nope.attached to the most wonderful guy in the world. (:

2. Are you happy?
A:loving every moment.

3. Are you bored?
A: yes.of mugging.seriously,when will it end?

4. Are you fair?
A: nope.but not dark either (:

5. Are you indian?
A: my granny is.does tat count?

6. Are you stupid?
A: yes.tat is why i retain cos im so stupid.all i did was have fun and forgot about my books.lol.

7. Are you honest?
A: depends.but definitely honest to my bf and my close frens (:

8. Are you irish?
A: if Irish gerls are hot and sexy,i wish!

9. Are you nice?
A: i can be when i wanna be (:

10.Are you asian?
A: a true white and red with a cresent and five stars Singaporean.

Ten facts.
Full name: Khairiyah
Nickname: Heyya
Birthplace: Singapore
Hair colour: natural=black.but im so loving the strands of gold!
Hair style: long and layered and oh oh! wavy!!
Eye colour: ask my boyfy.he should noe the best.
DOB: 31st July 1991
Mood: Thankful.
Favourite colour: wat i potray or the real ones? lol.potray=pink. real ones=ask my bf.
One place you wished to visit: VENICE!♥


This or That.
Love or lust: Love (and a little bit of lust)
Cats or dogs: Cats.(kittens.meow meow)
Best friends or regular friends: Best friends (with specks of regular friends)
Creamy or crunchy: Creamy with a crunch
Pencil or pen: pencil and pen.pencil for sketches and pen for permanent stuffs.
Wild night out or romantic in: a dash of wild night out with a seasoning of romantic in. (:
Money or happiness: they do interlink at some point,rite? lol.so both.
Night or day: day and night with loved ones next to me. (:
IM or phone: cant live without any.


Have you ever.
Been caught sneaking out: nope (:
Seen a polar bear: yes,anytime i want to,i just have to walk down the TV aisle of the best denki store at parkway parade!
Done something you regret: everyone has it.
Jumpin: totally! (:
Eat an entire Jaw breaker?: yeah! more than one baybe!!
Been caught naked: when i was young.sigh.those were the days lol.
Wanted bf back?: haha.yeah.lift doors close,press open.always wanted him back.
Cried because lost a person forever: a close fren.my best fren.
Wanted to disappear: yeah.especially when in despair.


Preference of love.
Smile or eyes: beautiful smile to match those beautiful eyes.
Light or dark hair: dark.sexy!
Hugs or kisses: cuddles and smooches!
Shorter or taller: taller than me.
Intelligence or attraction: a brainiac with looks.
Violent or pathetic: either way,i will love him no less (:
Older or younger: older.younger guys are a no no for me!
Outgoing or quiet: Outgoing but knows when to be quiet.
Sweet or bad: sugar and spice and everything nice!! rawr!! (:


i want my babitches to do it! and anyone who feels like doing it!

regret.it sux.

take a turn.

drive faster than your limit.

dont look back.

focus on the future.

race towards it.

it will be worth it.

trust Him.

shayne ward is love!!

♥ im tired of the daily night arguements ♥

pocketful of depressant

i am depressed for i am fat. ):

i am effing depressed.i swear.

it's bad when a gerl is like much much meatier than her boyfren.

it makes me feel fat whenever i stand beside him.it really affects my self-esteem and confidence.ive told him how ive felt but nothing's changed.and ppl are making comments like 'heyya.ur fat' or 'heyya,i will be amazed if salihin can carry you but i am not shocked that u can carry salihin.'

ok.

so i cant tell anyone how i feel.not even salihin.so when you are reading this salihin,just know that i have tried to tell you but it doesnt matter now and lets get one thing straight. i am so tired of listening to u saying 'b.u are not fat.even if you are,so wat?'.i have been telling you that it is irritating and before i break down,frigging stop.

i wish i could blame you for making me feel this way.i keep questionning why you are so thin etc.but nothing good ever comes out of it.so what if u are the cause of this depression? u are just gonna say that i dont love you for who you are and i am tired of arguing.i really am.

talking and promising changes nothing.

i really have had enuff of feeling fat around you.

everytime we are next to each other,i feel like i am hulk and you are pinky frm 'pinky and the brain' cartoon.

and i am so depressed i wish that i could just scream at myself.

they told me 'dont harm yourself.'

but too late,right?

everything could be avoided if only we knew how.

aneroxic or not.

i am doing this my own way.

advice me if you want.

i dont promise that i will heed your advice.

♥ i hate myself more now ♥

do it with LOVE

innocence.a blissful thing.


ok.i wanted to blog and i thought i had an idea on what i wanted to blog.but then i kept typing and deleting and typing and now,i am so lost.lol.what i know is that i wanna have a picnic on either saturday after work or sunday.i wanna have the whole afternoon.then i have to go find balloons for MJ Open House.


since i have no idea what i wanna blog about.let me just wish all Muslims
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!
yok kita sembelih kambing,lembu dan unta! yum yum!


i have to wake up at 6.30 later to cook nasi briyani. (: and then work is at 10 till 2.then come home,i can eat! only abit but still,eat rice! ive waited for so long.too long.haha. and oh.ive gained weight. fml.im fat.


but anyways,here for my dude.

Baby life was good to me
But you just made it better
I love the way you stand by me
Through any kind of weather

I don't wanna run away
Just wanna make your day
When you feel the world is on your shoulders
Don't wanna make it worse
Just wanna make us work
Baby tell me I will do whatever

It feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me
Feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me
Feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me
Baby nobody, nobody, until you

Baby it just took one hit of you now I'm addicted
You never know what's missing
Till you get everything you need, yeah

I don't wanna run away
Just wanna make your day
When you feel the world is on your shoulders
Don't wanna make it worse
Just wanna make us work
Baby tell me, I will do whatever


See it was enough to know
If I ever let you go
I would be no one
Cos I never thought I'd feel
All the things you made me feel
Wasn't looking for someone until you

♥ nobody nobody,until you ♥